eh mattheus hahaha damn funny i was very irked at the template at first but actually now its starting to grow on me. okay that was a random point and well.. not neccessary. and you better buck up the standard of your posts la so anyhow one. mhmm.. kidding kidding.

nowadays so many people around are emo-ing away. (matt obviously doesn't count. your symptom is spelled out B-O-R-E-D). well you either cry or laugh so here are my 2 cents worth.

DISCLAIMER: I DONT PRETEND TO BE ANY EXPERT OR WHAT SO IF YOU READ AND GO CRAZY/TRY OUT THE STUFF AND GET REJECTED ITS TOTALLY NOT MY FAULT. ALSO I WOULD LIKE TO ASSURE EVERYONE THAT THIS ACCOUNT IN NO WAY REPRESENTS ME. I AM GUAI AND INNOCENT. ah there we go (:

i guess we all remember the first time. insecure of yourself, gazing starry-eyed at that first crush, wondering how she could ever ever even taken notice of insignificant, unworthy you. you go around stalking her, finding out how she's doing, learning about her from her friends, getting to know her without getting to know her if you catch my drift. then you get her handphone number and email from a friend. then you stop and am like, "how to start convo!!" then you plan out your sms stare at it for 10min, rejected it and start from scratch all over again.

(eh on a separate note, i'm writing this from a guy's perspective btw if anyone hasn't realised already hahaha. so yeah.)

the first thing is to not see the girl as so way up there. self-confidence is alluring hahaha seriously. of course it does seem hard at first la. when you crush someone everything she does is like.. oh so graceful -swoon- kinda thing but just get real. OKAY. sorry yeah i'm not much of a romantic and if your thinking that thought now, don't worry cause i know, and i don't take offense. my last ex was like on my case daily for being unromantic/ungentlemanly/unkempt but i found the whole matter highly amusing. okay la not entirely amusing of course my ego pain abit right, but thats where the whole "its over (walks out)" thing from FANTOM OF THE CAMPSITE the alliance and co. production came about. it is noteworthy that you shouldn't tell a christian you hate God and want to have nothing to do with Him, go clubbing every other day and somehow expect the guy to accept you. makes sense right? hahaha.

yeah i knoww how it feels. all your jealous friends who also like her will put you down, saying you have no chance whatever. but i'm a firm believer in Hitch and the "any man has a chance in getting any woman" mantra is one of the main tenants of my innermost psychology, and it IS of paramount importance to not pay any heed to them lest your mind descend into a whirlpool of confusion and self doubt.

think about it, you want to reach out to some girl, but she's outta this world. dunno abt y'all la but thats quite outta reach. so first and foremost you hafta bring her back down to earth. oh btw i know those phrases were originally meant to be taken metaphorically but the literal interpretation seemed rather apt. when your infatuated with someone you only see the good side of her. like, for example, she's chio, she's charismatic. what you don't realise is that she's posessive, secretly insecure etcetc. please remember that every girl is deep down, well, at this age anyway, an insecure teenager. you just have to find a way to connect with that voliatile part of her and game set match. what this means is that you put yourself in her shoes, try to figure out what would touch her at that point in time. what this also means is figuring out what she thinks about you and if neccessary, changing that.

if you think about it, yes you crush her but as a teenager, she probably has her own crush too. AND THAT MIGHT NOT NECCESSARILY BE YOU. yes thats a sad fact of reality that at times the pieces don't just all fall into place right from the start. but its okay cause character counts more than looks, unless the girl in question is hopelessly superficial and if that is the case your better off without her. (btw i'm not being sour grapes here hahaha.) the point being, someone out there's probably making her feel woefully inadequate too. basically, she's human! not some goddess or angel like so many many people like to delude themselves into thinking she's out of reach. setting themselves up for failure which i personally find to be extremely retarded.

there are those who say they already KNOW her flaws, and insecurities etc but they still see her as perfect because they love her for who she is. in that case your either very close to her already or your trying to bluff me with your romantic notions of utopia. (which is sadly the case 90% of the time) to these people, i sincerely wish you never be disillusioned cause i've forgotten how it was like to see the world with such optimism and frankly that sucks.

all readers who feel you fit in the above category should stop reading further.













but frankly that kinda thinking is indeed endearing and innocence is of a high premium these days, but just take a step back and consider the situation rationally. you don't go up to an angel and talk to her. the angel comes down to talk to you. but as you sit there waiting and hoping desperately for the day to come, she just doesn't take notice of you and ooopz. it is our privelledge (misfortune to some) as guys, to be the one who makes the first move. its like being white while play chess. that first move gives you the initiative, allows you to do stuff. by choosing and determining the place y'all will meet, you also select the atmosphere and tone for the relationship. which essentially means that you choose whether you want to be super romantic (esplanade, al fresco dinner) or casual (standard movie dinner) or unconventional (hahaha for the want of a better word at this point in time, i used unconventional. which means.. anything la. playing arcade? ice-skating? LAN!)

and i also feel you shouldn't pay for the first date unless your super rich cause that sets the precedence, she'll be paiseh to offer to pay cause scared you'll make a scene, and your.. just dead cause the cost x2.

rofl i think i've sidetracked alot. i can't even remember what my main point was lo.
anddd. i need to play dota badly. zhijie's broodmother build is just damn imba can't stand it. hahaha. maybe later peeps.